A Harsh Moment in Time

 I bought groceries recently and they were out of a brand of snack bars I like, so I bought a different one. Not a big deal...or so I thought. This morning I grabbed one to eat and my first thought was, " I wonder if baby is gonna like this." I'm not pregnant anymore, there is no baby to like or dislike whatever food I choose to eat, yet my brain wondered. It hit hard when I realized what I thought. I was never informed of the depths of pain I would feel at times and the thoughts that would ravage my mind. I sit here and wonder, what horrible pain is still to come. When will it hit? Will it hurt as much as this last thought? Does it get easier?

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